Welcome friends!!!

We are so glad you stopped by to share our blog. We love life and each other immensely. As much as we want to be with everyone at once it is just impossible, at least until they finalize that cloning stuff (jk). So this is a way for us to keep in touch with you and for you guys to share things with us. Do not be shy. We love to hear from friends new and old (especially if it has been a while). Let's chat, let's catch up, let's reconnect.

We wish you only the very best,
Kimani, Datnee, Nehemiah, Kimberlee, Daniel, and Naomi Smith

Sunday, March 15, 2009

Daily Record Article

dailyrecord.com
March 14, 2009

Rockaway couple share story of birth on TLC program

By Rob Jennings
Daily Record

ROCKAWAY -- Datnee Smith is sharing the birth of her daughter, Kimberlee, with a national television audience.

Smith, 31, of Rockaway, her husband, Kimani, and Kimberlee -- born Jan. 16 at Morristown Memorial Hospital -- will be featured starting Tuesday on "A Baby Story."

The episode featuring the Smiths -- the 1,116th during the show's 11-year run on The Learning Channel -- will chronicle their lives through the latter stages of her pregnancy and Kimberlee's birth in Morristown.

The couple said video cameras and crew in the hospital delivery room were not a distraction, mostly because they were so focused on what was happening.

"After a while, you forget about them," said Datnee Smith.

Met in college

Smith was born in Puerto Rico and graduated from Nyack College in 2002 with a degree in psychology. She met Kimani Smith, now a quality assurance technician at Alcoa in Dover, while both were in college. They married and have a 5-year-old son, Nehemiah.

The episode, which will be repeated several times on TLC, will run for the first time at 3 p.m. Tuesday. Datnee and Kimani are holding a viewing party with family and friends at their Hillside Avenue apartment.

Smith said she is a longtime fan of the show and, upon becoming pregnant a second time, applied online to participate.

"We were really excited to have conceived again," she said

Smith explained that she was diagnosed with endometriosis following Nehemiah's birth and that doctors initially believed she might not be able to have another baby.

Smith, who delivered Nehemiah by Caesarean section, made the unusual decision -- in accordance with her doctors -- to deliver Kimberlee by what is referred to as a VBAC -- vaginal birth after Caesarean. Most woman who become pregnant after having delivered a baby by Caesarean section opt not to proceed with a vaginal delivery due to potential complications, such as rupturing, that are more likely due to the previous surgery.

Smith's obstetrician, David Garfinkel, said that "VBACs, in general, are always a little stressful," adding, "A lot of physicians are not offering VBACs because of medical liability issues."

But everything turned out fine. Garfinkel, who estimated he has delivered about 150 babies per year for the past 15 years, said the delivery was mostly uneventful with the exception of minor fetal distress.

Kimberlee arrived weighing 6 pounds, 1 ounce, and was 19 inches long.

TLC provided the following synopsis of what viewers will see and hear on television starting on Tuesday:

"Datnee's plan is to deliver this baby naturally. She felt like her right to labor as a woman was taken away from her the first time around, so she is bound and determined to get it right this time. And when she is a week overdue, the doctor decides to induce her.

"As the pitocin begins, Datnee is feeling good and thinks she can handle this pain for sure. She and Kimani walk around the halls of the hospital to kick labor into high gear. But as soon as the doctor checks her and she is 5 (centimeters) dilated. He decides to break her water, which throws Datnee into very active labor and the pain intensifies. Datnee's cries for help go unanswered as she quickly dilates to 10 and is ready to push!

"As the pushing begins, everything happens very fast and furiously. It took about four pushes before baby Kimberlee finds her way into the world. She is welcomed with cries of joy as this family is thrilled to finally meet her. Kimani is so proud that is wife was able to birth this baby just as she had planned! And when Nehemiah meets his baby sister for the first time, he has nothing but love for her."

Kimani Smith said he was glad to have participated in the show.

"I thought it was a wonderful experience, to show the whole behind-the-scenes," Smith said.

TLC declined to say what, if anything, the family was paid. Datnee said they were given a pack of diapers, two boxes of Clorox wipes and were promised a DVD of the show.

Additional Facts

When to watch
The Smith family's "Baby Story" will air for the first time at 3 p.m. Tuesday on The Learning Channel.

Friday, March 6, 2009

Favoritism

So is it fair when children have a favorite parent? As parents we try hard to make all things equal and for all the children to feel as important and loved and wanted. But how about when the children say to themselves (and others), "I belong to ___."

And is it more unfair when that favorite parent is NOT the one who carried the child in their belly for nine months, seeing their body take on a whole new look, and then have to go under the knife to finally meet the child, and be recuperating from that surgery for YEARS to come.....

Hello!!! it is perfectly clear who the favorite parent should be, but no the jury has spoken and the vote was for none other than daddy. And yes he is a good daddy, but how about the momma.

Well, now there is another child who is clearly making it known that mommy is the preferred parent and no daddy, you do not get to be jealous in any way because for the past 5 years plus 9 months of belly time, I have been second and it is time for Mommy to be mommy and love every minute of it.

Yes, Nemi will FOREVER be daddy's boy. I have even asked him if he was mine in the midst of mending his wound and kissing his hurting knee:
MOM: "Nemi are you mine?"
NEMI: "Daddy's."
MOM: "Nemi are you Mommy's or Daddy's?"
NEMI: "Daddy's."
MOM: "Nemi come on, are you Daddy's or Mommy's?" (As if switching it up on him will really make a difference, I mean I am trying hard here.)
NEMI: "Daddy's."
MOM: "Oh! Ok. " (I guess I lose the battle again, but beware... I shall win the war, har har har har)

Well, this has been a fun little tug o'war that Kimani and I have always had. We love our Nemi, and now we look forward to Kimberlee wanting only Mommy, har har har..... :) I am having too much fun with this.

until later,
ds

Saturday, February 28, 2009

Follow up

So yesterday I went for my six-week check up at the OBGYN and it went really good. Everything seems to be back to normal and I have only a few more pounds to lose to be back to my 'regular' weight. By a few I mean a lot more than I expected so, where are my workout tapes?

I am so thankful to have been refered to this OBGYN practice. They are really nice and a fun bunch of girls. The Doctor and the Midwife are really attentive and make it such a personal experience.

Kimberlee was introduced to the Dr. G for the first time since delivery and we had a great laugh reliving the labor and delivery. Dr. G is pretty cool. Kimani did not get to go with me this time and everyone "missed" him. He is usually the one that makes everyone laugh during my check ups, so they notice when he is not around.

Anyway, will chat more later.....

hasta la vista, baby

Wednesday, February 25, 2009

For Kimberlee



In my daughter's eyes, I am a hero.
I am strong an' wise,
And I know no fear.
But the truth is plain to see:
She was sent to rescue me,
I see who I wanna be, in my daughter's eyes.

In my daughter's eyes, everyone is equal,
Darkness turns to light,
And the world is at peace.
This miracle God gave to me,
Gives me strength when I am weak.
I find reason to believe, in my daughter's eyes.

An' when she wraps her hand around my finger,
Oh, it puts a smile in my heart.
Everything becomes a little clearer.
I realise what life is all about.
It's hangin' on when your heart has had enough;
It's givin' more when you feel like givin' up.
I've seen the light: it's in my daughter's eyes.

In my daughter's eyes, I can see the future.
A reflection of who I am,
An' what will be.
An' though she'll grow an', some day, leave:
Maybe raise a family,
When I'm gone, I hope you'll see,
How happy she made me,
For I'll be there, in my daughter's eyes.

Wednesday, February 11, 2009

Has anyone ever been able to take a picture of a child right as he is winking at you. this is a great picture.



And here is Kimberlee Ann. Looking like the nun she will become. :)


Friday, October 24, 2008

Just a spoon full of sugar...

I finally got my medicine for my cough. It is about time I got off my lazy butt. I should be a hundred percent by next week. Yeepeee!!!

No more cramps/contractions since I was discharged two days ago, so that is also good news.

talk to you later,
ds

Thursday, October 23, 2008

No Title... Just the story

I am so tired I cannot think of a title for this blog, so I am just going to go right into it.
Tuesday night we were having a nice family night enjoying one of the few shows Kimani and I agreed to watch this season, Eli Stone. Once it was over we went to bed and I began to feel a little cramping in my lower abdomen. The entire area below my bellybutton began to just feel like a cramp that would come and go every so often. I made a mental note of the time and how often I thought I felt this cramping.
After a while I got up to go to the living room and when I saw the time, it was about 1220am. I made a second mental note that I had the reoccurring pain for about an hour now and it would come what seemed every five minutes. At this time I called the emergency hot line for my OBGYN and did just what Dr. Garfinkel said..."Drink about a bucket of water and call me in two hours"
OK so I drank the bucket of water within the first hour because I was really hoping it was braxton hicks. And I as i laid I prayed the pain would stop and that it was just from dehydration. Even if it was just 'hicks, I wanted the pain to go away. I thought that at 28 weeks this kind of pain could not be good.
So at about 4am I spoke to the doc again and he asked me to come in for a premature labor evaluation. Now, at this time I was concerned, but somehow I knew I was not in labor. I still went to the hospital because I did want to get checked out and I really wanted to sleep and I could not do that with the cramps coming and going. I was up all night already.
By the time I got there I was contracting every three to four minutes. They checked if I had effaced or dilated, and thankfully I had not. They also did a test to find out my likelihood of going into labor in the next two weeks and that came back negative, which was good news.
They gave me a couple of shots to stop all the contractions and we went home with the instructions to call/come back if the contractions started again.
At first i was not even sure if I should call the doctor or wait until the next day and go in to the doctor's office because I did not ever have any contractions with Nehemiah and I was not certain what was going on. I also did not want to make it seem like I was being a baby or whatever (I always think people think I am being a big baby and I hate that I think that), so I was home doing my Bradley breathing I learned from the book and just remained calm and relaxed with every cramp, well, contraction. I felt so good when at one point the doctor is looking at the monitor and he says to me, "well, you did the right thing by coming in because many women would feel the pain and not come. You are actually contracting and we have to stop this, so I am glad you are here. You are not in labor, but we want to make sure the cramps do not continue because eventually you will dilate." That lifted such a weight off my shoulders.
So needless to say, I am to take it easy. Dr. Kimani Smith has put me on bed rest, and I am not to cook, clean or even have intercourse for the next three months (yeah, we will see about those orders "Dr."). My only duty is to take Nemi to school and bring him home. Kimani is so loving, I love having him. He is so protective over his family, and concerned for our well-being. He is so much more than I ever expected.
Nemi too was so good. We took him to the hospital with us, because it being the middle of the night, we just could not get ourselves to wake anyone up to watch him so we took him and he did good considering his sleep got disrupted and he was in the hospital waiting area for about 5 hours.
Well, right now I still feel a bit dazed, and dizzy. I am going to rest some more and hope to just feel better over all. I want to get rid of this crazy cough that I have had for the past two weeks. I just want to be 100% again, could any one please help me.
Oh! one last thing, I am going to have to call my dad and ask him to reconsider coming up at the end of the year. Not having Kimani in the room with me because he had to stay in the waiting area with Nemi was a bit of a killer. Kimani had no clue what was going on, and I had no support when the nurses left. We need to leave Nemi with someone when we go to real labor and I hope he could come up and help us. Right now our option is for Kimani to take me to the hospital and then go to Brooklyn to drop Nemi off with Kimani's parents. I cannot even imagine how long that will take and the chance of traffic or an accident delaying his return already makes this whole plan futile.
You know I am going to ask my friend/neighbor if we could leave him with her if it happens during the day - and then later take him to Brooklyn. If I go into labor in the middle of the night, I am sure traffic will not be an issue so Kimani could do the NY run; that way we could leave him there for days if we have to.
So keep us in prayer. This turned to be a bit long... sorry.
-ds

Wednesday, October 15, 2008

Batman Begins... for Nemi

Oh! the little milestones we get to experience.



We have been contemplating getting for Nehemiah a full size bed because his crib turned into a toddler bed and then to a full size bed... However, Kimani's colleague was selling a twin size bed (headboard and everything) and we thought, you know we could always just use his current crib for the baby and just get him the twin size bed.



Oh! goodness... when he saw the bed he was all excited and he was helping his daddy put it together and everything so when Kimani finished he made the bed with the Batman sheet set and Nehemiah was all over the batman sheets and yada yada yada, until......



it was time to actually go to bed.



He kept going back to his crib (well, toddler bed) with his pillow and saying, Night Night... like telling us, 'I am supposed to be on this bed...'



Well, eventually he did fall asleep on the twin size bed, but it was weird to see him in that big bed. We are so used to seeing him in the toddler, which he has been in that bed since he came home from the hospital and to suddenly see with our own eyes that he is growing up and needs a 'big boy' bed it was a bit surreal... Like wow! he is actually gonna be 5. We knew for a long htime he needed a bigger bed but to see it here in the house and him laying in it was tugging at our hearts.



Kimani thinks he will not take it well that the new baby will be in 'his' crib when she comes... I said, 'do not worry, he will be fine'. I mean, what else am I supposed to say. This is one of those things that no one has a choice in the matter, Nehemiah is getting big and we are having a baby. So we are all going to have to adjust to the changes and keep it moving with an open mind come what may.



-ds

Friday, October 10, 2008

Happy Birthday Ice Cream!!

yeah!
I love love love Cold Stone Ice Cream and I am soooo looking forward to going over today and getting my free birthday ice cream. yum yum. My favorite combination is the chocolate ice cream with almonds and either oreo cookies or brownie. They are both good, but having both cookies and brownie is a bit much. In any case, there is nothing like some good birthday ice cream and when it is free it is just even better.
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Monday, October 6, 2008

Nemi - the Higglytown Hero

So Nehemiah is a little hero in his own world. Here is what happened.
It was time to take him to school and like I do every morning, I told him to get in the car and give me the seat belt. While he is doing this, I usually throw the car keys from the back seat on to the driver seat, along with my wallet and his backpack. That way when I finish with him, I just get in the front seat and have all the things I need.
Some how or other, I do not even know how it happened, all the doors locked without me noticing. So I closed Nemi's door and tried to open my door and... "Oh! Oh!". I try his door... "oops!!" I remained calm because the morning was nice and chilly so he was not going to be in a hot car. So I happened to have my cell phone in my pocket to call Kimani to ask someone for a ride to the house to help us out. While I am leaving a message on Kimani's voicemail, Nehemiah begins to play with the door handle and since he cannot open it because of the child lock, I tell him Nemi pull the other piece (or whatever I said). So he did and he actually unlocked the door himself and I quickly opened the door before he locked it again. I was so proud of him. He was the hero in his own rescue - though he did not even know he had to be rescued.
Good job Nemi.

Thursday, October 2, 2008

Kimberlee's First Shoes

I love these little shoes. They are so absolutely perfect. I received them from one of the moms I met at Nehemiah's school. She is so kind to me. Her daughter is in Nemi's class and she is so cute.

As soon as I saw these shoes I placed them on Kimani's pillow and when he got home I told him, "I think Kimberly is coming home in these." He is so in love with his daughter. We are so in love with both our children. I do not even know if the shoes will fit her when she is three days old, but for Kimani and I it is perfect for her to come home in. I had Nehemiah's outfit picked out so early on and when Kimani was getting him dressed to come home (with his Mommy-crocheted booties, sweater and hat), I could not hold in my laugh because Nemi was so skinny and everything was so big on him. I still remember that day. It was cute.

Anyway, we are so excited to have another baby join our family. We hope Nemi adjusts well, we shall see...
Until later,
Momma

Tuesday, September 23, 2008

Time flies when you are having fun.



I had planned to blog all about this pregnancy, and keep up with all the details about having this baby, but that surely did not happen.
So let me see what I need to update you on. We are having a baby girl... we are going to name her Kimberly Ann... I am on week 24 as I write this... thus far I have gained one pound... I look smaller in real life than in pictures. I feel great.
So many stories to tell you... Nehemiah has been so sweet with this pregnancy. We would ask him where the baby is and he would come up to me and kiss my belly. So cute. Now that we all know it is a girl, he would say 'Hi Baby, hi sister', always melts my heart. I know that it is a bit abstract for him still, but I am sure he will do fine when she gets here.
I had thought about applying for The Baby Story (on TLC), but one of the requirements is to get concent from my OBGYN as to how they feel about being recorded and all that stuff. Well, my doctor (Dr. Karen) is not interested at all to be on TV, but his partner does not mind. After thinking about it we decided not to go through with the application because we did not want to deprive Dr. Karen the opportunity to deliver this baby if he happens to be on call that night, and he has been so supportive and he has worked so hard with us to be at this stage, that for us to apply and get in would be bittersweet since it may mean we would have to deliver with the other doctor. It was fun to consider it though.

Right now our biggest concerns are:
1. Setting up Nehemiah's room to welcome the baby. We do not want to wait until last minute.
2. What will happen with Nemi when we go deliver the baby... we have no idea who will stay with him. The current idea is to have my parents 'move' in and help us out. Worst comes to worst we will take him to the hospital with us and he could hang out a the nurse's station. (ha! that will be fun - I could see them going crazy already) I pray we deliver overnight so that he could just sleep the entire time if we have to do that.
3. How I will get Nemi to school once the holidays are over. I am thinking of asking the other moms from the classroom for help, but i sooo do not want to do that. I think I will end up having him home with me instead of inconveniencing anyone in any way.

I guess in the whole spectrum of the issues happening in life and in the world all around us... these concerns are by no means a point of worry, but I rather worry about these things than the economy.

all right, talk to you soon,

Datnee and baby :)

Tuesday, July 1, 2008

We made it to the end of the first trimester.

This is so exciting. (just so you know, it has taken me an entire week to write this - I kept on falling asleep). Finally, we are at the last week of the first trimester - week 12 - we saw the baby again this past Monday. Since we could not hear the heartbeat on the Doppler they did another sonogram. I really like our OB-GYN. Thank you Leah for recommending them.

This first trimester has been fun. The first month was a piece of cake, of course, since we did not even know what was going on. I say we as if Kimani feels anything at all, but anyway - you know what I mean. The second month was interesting in that my appetite change drastically and my taste buds were doing their own thing. And the third month was absolutely exhausting. I actually lost 5 pounds between the second and the third month. I was sleeping so much that even if I was hungry I just could not make it out of the bed (but mostly couch) to make something to eat.

Now I am beginning to learn the signs my body gives me to differentiate hunger and bionic fatigue, so I eat a little something before I knock out so that I do not sleep on an empty stomach.

Thank you Lord, that I did not throw up once. I am so grateful for that.... I hate puking. Well, it is not like anyone really loves it, but I just hate feeling like I am suffocating.

Well, I will keep you posted on our progress.

Talk to you soon.

Wednesday, June 18, 2008

There is nothing better than Grandma

So my mother is here to visit me and spend some much needed quality time with Nehemiah.

He is soo cute. As soon as he saw her when she arrived, he called out to her "Grandma" and jumped in her arms for a big hug. Very cute and quite moving being that I was right next to her and completely did not greet me, but I was totally ok with that.

Well, the next day we go to the store and Nemi is in the shopping cart as I push him along and at some point Mom decided to go to the next aisle over to check out something. As she leaves, Nehemiah says, "Bye Grandma!" A minute goes by and he says to me, "Mommy, I want my Grandma", my mother hears him on the next aisle and runs to her grandson, who so lovingly wants her and he looks at her and says, "I want gum". Mom, who is famous for always having chewing gum right at hand, loves the fact that he called out to her and happily hands him over a piece of gum.

Grandma is happy to see Nemi with his gum, and believe me, Nemi is happy Grandma is here to give him gum.

At long last love has come. Grandma and Nemi.

ds

Monday, June 16, 2008

I am not complaining I am just explaining!

Oh! My goodness. This pregnancy is soooooooo different than my “Nemi Belly”. It is unbelievable. I feel sooo sick. I mean not puke sick nor flu sick, but just very icky. My taste buds have completely disguised themselves into grossness and I constantly have this nasty aftertaste in my mouth. I love coffee so much. I cannot have it now. I like to have a ginger ale now and then and after I drink it (or any other sweet/sparkly beverage for that matter) I get this after taste in my mouth. So no I am down to drinking just water. Though I get the after taste in my mouth after I drink water as well it a lot more tolerable than after drinking other things. With Nemi I was fully fine the entire 9 months

What is more, I feel super hungry all the time, but since my taste buds are out of whack I cannot just eat anything. My appetite has been turned off, my olfactory is on full attention, taking in every scent and not liking anything at all, and my taste buds are on strike – rejecting every proposition for a peace treaty with the stomach.

Finally, I am sooo drained all the time. By 2pm everyday I am ready to just fall out and nap anywhere I am. When I was expecting Nemi I was soo energized, maybe the excitement of our first child had me on a constant high, but now I feel drained from within and having Nemi is also an external ‘draining’ factor that I did not have before. The good think is that Nemi is learning to play with me while I lay on the couch or the bed. In the very beginning he wanted me up and on my feet moving around with him and be after him at all times. Now, I guess he resolved to himself, ‘If I cannot beat them – join them’ and he will come on the couch and we play for as long as he wants.

Even though this pregnancy is different than my first one, I am really excited and happy to be expecting a miracle again. I look forward to seeing Nemi play with his sibling. Kimani is already starting to interact with the baby and talk to him/her like he did for Nehemiah. It is fun, and hopefully all of this ends in two weeks when I enter my second trimester.

I will surely keep you posted.
:)

Friday, May 30, 2008

Awwww!!!


Isnt' this the most beautiful picture you have ever seen!! Ja ja ja ja (in english now - ha ha ha ha).

I was so glad the OBGYN (Dr. Karen) took this picture of the little one. The heartbeat was strong and it is just teeny tiny.

Dr. Karen was amazing at helping us thourgh our 6 month treatment of endometriosis and now he put us at ease with this new pregnancy... He was so happy for us. He answered a lot of questions and gave us a lot of hope. More than anything he reassured me that if all goes well with the pregnancy, I could maybe deliver 'naturally' (VBAC). That was such great news.

Ok so we will keep in touch.

Meanwhile, back at the ranch...
Nehemiah is so cute. We ask him where the baby is and he actually comes up to me and points to my belly. Yesterday we are putting him to bed and he says, 'give baby kiss' and kissed my belly. OH! I love that little boy. He is so loving and cute.

-ds

Wednesday, May 28, 2008

Life, death, and life again

It is so difficult when one has gone through the joys and sorrows of creating life and losing a life.


How does one reawaken hope when death has knocked at ones door.


About two years ago I had a miscarriage and up until recently I did not how much of my hope and faith had died. I was scrapping the bottom of the barrel trying to hold on to some kind of silver lining behind the clouds. In my head the storm had passed and even my words would speak of hope, but it was not until recently that I realized that my heart was fighting its way back from death too.


I no longer knew how to trust God. How do I really embrace his love for me when the one thing I begged him to keep away from me happened. I lost a child. I thought I was so OK with this and over it and that life went on. But I felt a new blow to my stomach when I was told I had a condition that actually rejects any embryo... and with that the sliver of life and hope within me was fully gone. I cannot give life. I have dreams and wishes and desires to have a big family. They say that desires are given to us from the Lord that we may trust Him for them as he aligns our lives to his will. Well there goes all of that.


How feeble minded we are! What tantrums we throw in our minds and hearts! How easily we forget that God is ALWAYS in control. He knows all things, and he does bring his will to pass.


He has not forgotten me. He loves me and even in my pain, I knew that only God himself could do a wonderful miracle. There was nothing 'humanly' possible that I could do to hold on to a child or even to compromise that child in my womb. If a child came to me it would be up to the very hand of God as to how far he would allow it to go. And finally I trust him. I believe that His word is true and that He is the Great Physician, and that he loves me with all my tantrums and doubts and uncertainties and he wants me to have the desires of my heart.

My heart is reawakened, there is hope in the impossible, there is love unconditional, for myself and once again for my God, there is faith unshakable that only God himself could be glorified in my life and bring about a miracle. The miracle of life once again. Life in my heart, in my spirit, in my womb. Yes!!! we should be holding this miracle of God's love in our hands by January 9th, 2009. I am already in love, I am overjoyed, I am blessed by my creator.

Friday, May 23, 2008

OH! what a beautiful morning
OH! what a beautiful day
I've got a wonderful feeling
All is a'going my way


I have to find the real lyrics to that song. It is from the Broadway play Oklahoma! I love Broadway. Kimani went with me to this play and we both thought it would be kind of out of our taste, and we may not enjoy it. But the tickets were free and we went anyway. Anything to have a little one on one. I love him. Well, lo and behold three years later, we still sing the stinking song to each other.

I keep thinking of how lucky I am to have him. I am sure most everyone (though it would be nice if it was everyone) feels the same about their own spouse. But I really am lucky. I was telling him the other day, "we have known each other for almost 10 years and this year we will be married 6. We cannot claim to be newlyweds anymore, though it sure feel like we just married still. We are now old married folks full of 'wisdom' and experience."

He laughed and hugged me - I love it when he fills my hug-a-meter.

In all honest truth I feel like we are still just friends hanging out, and fully enjoying each other's company. We laugh so much, and we don't seem to get as annoyed, or fight about so many little things. I could see how much more we trust each other, and trust our love for each other and how fully comfortable we are being around each other.

I hate hearing the horror stories of those people who have been married for 18 - 20 years. They seem to be so over it and just at the end of their rope, and we look at each other and say, 'boy! I hope that does not happen to us.'

It is true we have to work at it and continually surrender our marriage to the Lord, and always pray for each other, but the fear is still there that we may fall in that category. That after 2 decades of dedication to each other we would be worn out and have nothing else to give.

As joyful as I would be to be glorified with my savior and live eternally with my first true love, my carnal flesh feels a sadness to know that once in heaven Kimani and I will no longer be married. I already miss him. I know for a fact, I will care less about him or where he is because I will be so enveloped in my master that Kimani will be the last thing on my mind. But I am in love with him, and I wish we could like that forever.

Kimani, for all the beautiful and unique ways you love me. For finding a way to love me the way no one else could. I am grateful. I love you so much for all of your support, kind words and attempts to be faithful in every way. You are amazing, and I am lucky to have you.

Tuesday, May 13, 2008

Mother's Day Reflection

Nehemiah,
Before having you I was not even sure I would ever live up to be a mom, and everything that it entails.

Seeing you now at 4.5 years old, has really been a blessing. You have really shown me how impatient I am and intolerant, but at the same time you have given me a new start and a new hope that I can change my ways and be a good mom to you and any other sibling you may have (God willing).

I love being your Mom, and knowing that I could love someone unconditionally.

I just want you to know how much I love you, how proud I am of your progress, and how thankful I am of the change in me because of you and even your Dad in my life. I want to be the very best Mom you could ever have. That anyone could ever have.

I know in about 10 years or so we will not always see eye to eye, and we may bump heads at times. I do hope, however, that after that period is over you may know that I have wanted only the best for you.

Well, I love you buddy. Thank you for giving me four years of celebrating Mother's Day. It is because of you that the day is filled with so much joy.

Mommy.

Tuesday, May 6, 2008

Do it yourself... but let an expert do it.

OK so I have to retract, rewrite or down erase my previous entry regarding my plants. I just want to make sure everyone knows that from the beginning I confessed I was no green thumb.

Well, time proves it. At the end of the day... my herbs have died. Everyone join me for a moment of silence................................... OK we are back. Thank you for your sympathy

I could say that it was because:
1- I planted them too early
2- I over watered them
3- I under watered them after I almost drowned them
4- I just neglected them a bit by going away every weekend, I mean when you are a momma of plants/herbs you cannot just go away and not care for them
5- plain old lack of skill.
6- I only put two seeds (I know I'm a nut) in each pod so there was not a lot of 'peer support' for them to survive. I could imagine the seeds feeling like they are dying of... whatever... and turning to their neighbor seeing them dead already and giving up all hope.

Now deep down in my liver, I think I know it was because of #1, but just because I am not ready to fully admit that (maybe after a few more months) I will say it was because of reasons 2-6.

Sadly, I had to throw out the first batch. It was a bit sad and embarrassing. The second time around, I put like half the pack of seeds in one pod and hopefully the power of numbers will help them to survive. I don't know what is going to happen, all I know is that i am not taking responsibility if they all die again.

Now the saddest part of this entire story is that with my excitement I went over to a friend's house and planted, you got it, two seeds per pod at her house. This is spelling disaster. Unfortunately, I keep on forgetting to ask her how they are doing, but I am not holding my breath or any such thing, because I got the feeling they are dead and probably in the garbage where mine ended up, which I really would not be mad, just more embarrassed. I need to just ask her and face the music.

I knew I should have left the planting and herb growing to the experts, but no - I just constantly give in to boredom and convince myself I could just it all.

Alright guys, that is all I have on this story. Now I have to figure out a title for this entry, that may take me a minute.
Green thumb vs brown thumb (eww! that sounds like it has to do with doodoo)
Green thumb vs no thumb
To seed or not to seed
Do it the expert way
Do it, but don't do it
Do it yourself, but get an expert
Do it yourself, but let an expert do it.

Ok got it, talk to you soon.

Sunday, May 4, 2008

Rain and Lemons

When life gives you lemons, make lemonade... When it rains it pours.

These two sayings are tossed around so often in our everyday lives, but I cannot remember the last time I felt everything crash down around me so much that I had to tell myself these sayings. Well, that is after reminding myself to cast all my burdens upon the Lord because he cares for me.

Last week was such a tulmoltulous week. Is that even a word. I tend to make words up as I go. Maybe I spelled it wrong. Anyway, the point is that one thing after the other seemed to be going wrong. It has been a slow drip for the last two months. Here and there we would feel the pinch or the discomfort, but when last week hit, boy it was just about all i could handle. The biggest thing is that our car broke down and we have been carless for about a week now.

I knew things were bad, when I almost broke down to cry in front of my boss when he asked me if everything was alright. I mean there is no 1 specific thing I could point out to, it is just a series of little things.

Today, I am sooooo glad it is Sunday. It is a new week, a new start. The clouds have moved away, it is done pouring, I am having my lemonade and we are ready to move forward. Well sort of - we just need to get our car back ;]

Tuesday, April 29, 2008

Prayer Time

How cute... We have a night routine to put Nehemiah to bed, read the Word to him and pray. Then Kimani and I turn off the lights, and leave him to fall asleep.

Last night, Nehemiah calls out to me and says, "Mommy, let's pray." So Kimani and I turn back and kneel down by Nehemiah's bed and are quiet. We had already prayed with him, so we figured he wanted to say something specific. So after a moment he says, "Jesus thank you for blessings."

I just cried. I mean it may not seem like a big deal, but for him to say and entire sentence without being prompted or fed the words one by one, it was just amazing.

We are so proud of him. He is just too cute.

Monday, April 28, 2008

Wazzz up

Well, I am home today. It is Monday and usually I am at my part time job, but today I am enjoying the nice rainy - cold - windy day. Being cooped up inside does not bother me much, if I have not done it in a while.

Wow! it seems like this year is turning out to be quite challenging. I love seeing how God shows off his glory in our lives, but I am not crazy for the difficulties we have to endure in order for that to happen.

This is a picture of me on the train. I was sooooo bored on my way home I started taking pictures of the people around me. Those were weird so I got rid of them and took pictures of myself. I had such a blast. The conductor would walk by and tell me, 'are you that bored?' that made me laugh even more. I ended up taking like 11 pictures. it was so much fun. Now the level of fun was a direct correlation of the level of boredom. I am sure had I been on my right mind I would not have even done this. I may have considered it, but not gone through with it.
I hope to talk to you all soon.
Datnee

Friday, March 28, 2008

Nemi's new song

Oh! yeah!
Oh! yeah!
Oh! no!
Oh! no!
Oh! yeah!
Oh! no!

it is so cute how he sings it. He also loves this songs which he makes sure to shake his finger as he says no.

'No, no, no Jesus will never fail.'

though he never sings the rest of it.

'what he says he will do and he will never fail
Place your trust in man and he will surely fail
Place your trust in God and he will never fail.'

He just stays stuck in the chorus like a broken record.

'No, no, no Jesus will never fail.' imagine him with his finger high up in the air, saying no no no.

too cute.

Thursday, March 27, 2008

A long time coming

It seems I took a little vacation from my blogging... Sorry!!! I do have many stories to share. From sweet things that Kimani says, to funny things Nehemiah does even to conversations with God. There are a lot of things coming down the pike (or the pipe - never know what the real word is).

Though I cannot guarantee they are in chronological order, I will be sure to post my stories.

I will start by saying that I am so proud of my 'light' green thumb. I say that because I am not good with plants and considered myself as not having a green thumb, but last year my friend Leah inspired me to plant a seed of Basil and it grew nicely and I even used it on my cooking and then I went on vacation and the plant died never to be revived again so this spring season I went all out and got several different herbs and they are growing nicely (boy this is a long sentence).

Anyway, thank you Leah! I am on a roll with my herbs... I even planted some at Marisol's house. Now I am not at her house to keep an eye on them, but I hope those too grow nicely.

Well, I look forward to making my cooking better... I planted basil, cilantro, chives, oregano, and cherry tomatoes. We expect Nehemiah to go crazy on the cherry tomatoes and just pop them in his mouth as soon as they bloom, no not bloom, grow... i guess - i need a dictionary...

Anyway, will be back with more stories in the weeks to come.

hasta la pasta,

datnee

Monday, November 12, 2007

Oh! Nemi

Lately you have been doing so many cute things that it is hard to keep up. One story that I think is worth looking back on is this one.

Last night you, me and your dad were on our way back home to Jersey from your grandparents in Brooklyn and like we usually do we stopped at Dunkin Donuts right outside the Holland Tunel. Your father got coffee for me and him and he treated us all to donuts. You ate up your glazed donut like you had never had one in your life. Unfortunately, I did not have any wipes or napkins to clean your hands, so both your hands were covered with the sugary glaze. You must have been sleepy already because the next thing I know you were sleeping with all four fingers of your left hand in your mouth. I began to laugh and it startled you, which made it even funnier because you kept your eyes closed as you changed positions and took out your left hand from you mouth to make room for your right hand. All four fingers straight into the mouth. too cute.

Tuesday, September 11, 2007

New Chairs :)



Check out our new chairs. We were so tired of our chairs looking dirty and just plain nasty from all the food that have fallen on them and the stains that have remained through the years. I had several pairs of jeans I wanted to so 'something' with and could not think about anything, then one day I was wanting to go to the store to get some material to cover the chairs and it hit me to use the jeans. I ran the idea by Kimani and he loved it, then my mother suggested we keep the pockets and Kimani thought it would be great to have the pockets and leave little notes for each other on them. I loved the idea and put the pockets on too.

they look great. Two chairs with big pockets from Kimani's jeans and two chairs with smaller pockets from my jeans.

too cute.

Thursday, September 6, 2007

Outing at the Park

Nehemiah is doing soo cute, he enjoyed himself so much at the park recently. He keeps relying on us to help us through the things that seem difficult for him and I am to the point that I have to get him to be more secure in his own abilities and strength.

So he was at this park and wanted to go down the slide and I refused to help him up and then I caught this picture of him climbing the stairs to get to the slide. I was so proud of him that he actually made his way up there.

I love you very much, Nemi, you can do it honey. We believe in you.

Mom and Dad

Wednesday, August 29, 2007

Six Flags - Great Adventures!!!

Hey everyone, we waited all summer to go to Six Flags, Great Adventures and we finally had the chance to go with the church's youth group. It had been so long I had been on a roller coaster, I was not sure what it felt like or what to expect. We went on so many rides, I had a great headache from being tossed around and banged back and forth and up and down on these rides.

By far the most fun one was Medusa the ride was smooth and the dips and turns were not all that hard to handle. The most exciting was El Toro you seriously felt like you were riding a bull. it was seriously fast and up and down and left and right (it was my favorite). The scariest was Kingda Ka - very fast departure (so fast that you have to close your eyes because the wind is coming so fast at you) then when you come up it is fine, but coming back down you are looking right at the parking lot (I closed my eyes) then you do one more hill and it is over - very thrilling. I was shaking after that ride, when it was pulling in to the station to let us off, I felt like I was melting into my seat. I would do it again though.

We went on other little rides like twister and batman just for the fun of it. We missed Nemi a lot, especially when we saw the Bugs Bunny Land, and the Wiggles World. We thought it would be a great place for Nemi to have fun. We may take him when he is older so he could have fun on the kiddie rides.
Well, maybe one summer we will get the season pass so that we could go often, we had a great time, and in the midst of all the people we were able to just enjoy and draw closer to each other.
Until next time.

Wednesday, August 22, 2007

Cool Whip

Well, Nehemiah has discovered the deliciousness of cool whip. He is sooo hooked. I never ever ever buy cool whip for any reason. I like ice cream, but now I think we are making the shift.

Tuesday, August 21, 2007

Another funny story

I have to keep track off these so that I do not forget them.

Recently we went to church and one of the ladies at church just loves Nehemiah (we'll call her Lady), and he knows it. She likes it when he says her name, it makes her feel like she has a connection with Nemi and I think it is great.

So we went to church and after saying hello to Lady I told him to say good bye to another one of the ladies at the church (this lady needs to know she is loved), so here comes his beloved Lady and she says to Nehemiah, "hey do not go around flirting with other women I am your favorite right?" and without skipping a beat he looks at her and calls her by her name. We looked at each other because it was if to say, 'do not worry I know who you are and no one will take your place' It was just the perfect timing and it made Lady feel really loved and special. Now you have to understand, Nehemiah does not talk to anyone unless me or Kimani tell him to interact with other people, so for him to initiate conversation with Lady and even say her name without being asked was amazing... and she knew that. He has never again done that with anyone else.

Friday, August 17, 2007

Funny Story #2

So I was cooking a potato salad today and left the eggs out a bit too long. At one point I saw Nemi running with and egg. I decided to follow him to see what he would do and he ended up putting it in his favorite hiding spot... behind our bed. Our bed is positioned where the headboard is up against the window and right below the window is the heater. So Nehemiah often throws all kinds of things behind the headboard. Books, toys, brushes, anything he could find. So when I looked back there he had thrown the uncooked egg back there too. it was a mess. Thank God it was not there long enough to be rotten, otherwise we would have had quite a stinky situation in our hands.

Funny Story #1

This story is so funny. I went to get my nails done at the local chinese nail place and I took Nemi since I didn't have anyone to leave him with. So five minutes after the girl starts my nails Nemi takes off to explore the entire store. At one point I look at him and he is opening a bag of raisins and begins to eat them. I am calling out to him from where I am seated and I keep asking, "where did you get those raisins from" and he is completely ignoring me. In the meanwhile, the other girls who work at the nail salon are looking at me kind of funny. I thought Nemi took the raisins from another customer so I was trying to make eye contact to ask, but all the customers could care less about Nemi or my desire to get their attention. So I pay for the job, take Nemi (who by now finished the bag of raisins), and I head to the car. As I am putting Nemi in the car I look back to the nail salon and I happen to catch a glimpse of a small altar dedicated to Buddah full of all kinds of fruits. Some were fresh, and some were in individual bags, so I looked at Nemi and said, 'Nemi, you took the raisins off that altar?' Of course he had no clue what he did or what I was asking, but I went home laughing so hard. No wonder the girls who work there were looking at me kinda funky.

Even more funny was when I told Kimani about it he began to pray for the Holy Spirit to protect Nemi against any curses that may come his way. I laughed. Buddah is dead he cannot do anything.

Friday, August 3, 2007

Things, things and more things!!!

~So, of course the house was way too much, even after he lowered the price. We just need to look some more. Something will come up... I guess!

~I have a dentist appointment on Monday to fix one of my molars and itjust so happens tha the same molar cracked even more last night. What is worst is that the doctor's office does not open on Friday so I have to wait until Monday. Sucks!!

~Lately I have been hearing such bad news when it comes to my Christian friends. It seems like there is such an attack on our health. If it is not one thing it is the other. This girl I knew in Florida just passed away and though we rejoice she is with the Lord, it is just hard to hear that so many things are happening in the body of Christ.

hasta later...

Monday, July 30, 2007

House for sale

There is this house for sale not too far from where we live now and everytime I drive or walk by it I wonder how much it is worth because I love the way it looks on the outside and even the location.

Today finally, I mustered up the courage and went to the door and asked for a tour. It is so beautiful inside. It is all hard wood floor. It is two stories, bedrooms on the second floor with a full bathroom. On the first floor is the living room, dining room, and an eat in kitchen. It also has a liveable attic with tow bedrooms and a completed basement with an additional bedroom. In total it has like seven bedrooms (not that we need all that). It has a finished deck in the back and a nice size yard behind that and a driveway next to it. They want $365K for it, but from the get go he said he can lower the price. On my way out, he mentioned that he was about to call the real estate agent to get the house sold for him, but it is his desire to sell it owner to owner.

Kimani is gonna see the house tomorrow to see how he likes it and if he even wants to start to consider it. We will see how it turns out.

Keep us in prayer.

ds

Thursday, July 26, 2007

Our Vacation

We went to Puerto Rico for a family reunion. It was so much fun. We stayed in these villas that were just steps from the beach. There was also a boardwalk that was well lit and at night the lights of the boardwalk would also light the water of the beach so it was fun to go in the water at night as well. We even saw a flying fish.

The next reunion we are hoping it is a cruise. I vote for a Disney cruise just because we have never been on it.

Now we are back and tanned. Well, I was mildly burned. Nehemiah had a blast and at the end we had a pig roasting and ate like it was a traditional Christmas/New Year's Eve celebration. It was the best.

till next time.

Thursday, July 12, 2007

Back to Potty Training

So since the surgery I had taken a break from potty training because I just couldn't basically, but Nehemiah is ready. Three days ago, while wearing his pampers he said to me and later that same day to his father that he had to go poopoo (which means peepee) and when we took him to the bathroom we took off his pampers and he went in the toilet. That was pretty fun and surprising since he had the pamper on. I mean he could have just gone, but instead decided to do it in the toilet. Then yesterday, he was doing #2 (he does not usually verbalize when he has to go #2 - this one he just does it - with or without a pamper on) and I rushed him to the toilet he sat down and out it came. I was so proud of my boy. He waved good buy, flushed the toilet and turned to me and said, "CANDY!" it was too cute, he got his reward and he went on with his day.

Endometriosis

From Wikipedia, the free encyclopedia

Endometriosis is a common medical condition affecting an estimated 89 million women of reproductive age around the world. In endometriosis, the tissue that lines the uterus (the endometrium, from endo, "inside", and metra, "womb") is found to be growing outside the uterus, on or in other areas of the body. Normally, the endometrium is shed each month during the menstrual cycle; however, in endometriosis, the misplaced endometrium is usually unable to exit the body. The endometriotic tissues still detach and bleed, but the result is far different: internal bleeding, degenerated blood and tissue shedding, inflammation of the surrounding areas, pain, and formation of scar tissue may result. In addition, depending on the location of the growths, interference with the normal function of the bowel, bladder, small intestines and other organs within the pelvic cavity can occur. In very rare cases, endometriosis has also been found in the skin, the lungs, the diaphragm, and the brain. It is also very painful.

Symptoms
A major symptom of endometriosis is severe recurring pain. The amount of pain a woman feels is not necessarily related to the extent or stage (1 through 4) of endometriosis. Some women will have little or no pain despite having extensive endometriosis affecting large areas or having endometriosis with scarring. On the other hand, women may have severe pain even though they have only a few small areas of endometriosis.

Symptoms of endometriosis can include (but are not limited to):
Painful, sometimes disabling menstrual cramps (dysmenorrhea); pain may get worse over time (progressive pain)
Chronic pain (typically lower back pain and pelvic pain, also abdominal)
Painful sex (dyspareunia)
Painful bowel movements or painful urination (dysuria)
Heavy menstrual periods (menorrhagia)
Nausea and vomiting
Premenstrual or intermenstrual spotting (bleeding between periods)
Infertility and subfertility. Endometriosis may lead to fallopian tube obstruction. Even without this, there may be difficulty conceiving. In some women, subfertility is the sole symptom, and the endometriosis is only discovered after fertility investigations.
In addition, women who are diagnosed with endometriosis may have gastrointestinal symptoms that may mimic irritable bowel syndrome, as well as fatigue.

Patients who rupture an endometriotic cyst may present with an acute abdomen as a medical emergency. Endometriotic cysts in the thoracic cavity may cause some form of thoracic endometriosis syndrome, most often catamenial pneumothorax.

Epidemiology
Endometriosis can affect any woman, from premenarche to postmenopause, regardless of her race, ethnicity or whether or not she has had children. Endometriosis often persists after menopause. In less common cases, girls may have endometriosis before they even reach menarche.

Current estimates place the number of women with endometriosis at between 5% and 20% of women of reproductive age. About 30% to 40% of women with endometriosis are infertile, making it one of the leading causes of infertility. However, endometriosis-related infertility is often treated successfully with surgical destruction of the disease. Some women do not find out that they have endometriosis until they have trouble getting pregnant. While the presence of extensive endometriosis distorts pelvic anatomy and thus explains infertility, the relationship between early or mild endometriosis and infertility is less clear. The relationship between endometriosis and infertility is an active area of research.

Early endometriosis typically occurs on the surfaces of organs in the pelvic and intraabdominal areas. Health care providers may call areas of endometriosis by different names, such as implants, lesions, or nodules. Larger lesions may be seen within the ovaries as endometriomas or chocolate cysts (They are termed chocolate because they contain a thick brownish fluid, mostly old blood). Endometriosis may trigger inflammatory responses leading to scar formation and adhesions.

Most endometriosis is found on structures in the pelvic cavity:
Ovaries
Fallopian tubes
The back of the uterus and the posterior culdesac
The front of the uterus and the anterior culdesac
Uterine ligaments such as the broad or round ligament of the uterus
Intestines, particularly the appendix
Urinary bladder
Endometriosis may spread to the cervix and vagina or to sites of a surgical abdominal incision. In extremely rare cases, endometriosis areas can grow in the lungs or other parts of the body.

Surgically, endometriosis can be staged I-IV (Revised Classification of the American Society of Reproductive Medicine).

Causes
While the exact cause of endometriosis remains unknown, many theories have been presented to better understand and explain its development. These concepts do not necessarily exclude each other.

Endometriosis is a condition caused by excess estrogen created each month in the female body, and is seen primarily during the reproductive years. In experimental models, excess estrogen is necessary to induce or maintain endometriosis. Medical therapy is often aimed at lowering estrogen levels to control the disease. It is hypothesized that excess estrogen levels may be measured by a female taking her morning temperature (with a thermometer showing a tenth decimal) at the same time each day for a month or two. To learn more about taking your waking temperature, please see the book: "Taking Charge of Your Fertility" by Toni Weschler, MPH. A normal woman's body temperature varies from 98.5 to 97.5 degrees Fahrenheit (36.9 to 36.3 degrees Celsius), however it is hypothesized that someone with endometriosis may see temperatures of 98.5 to 97.0 °F (36.9 to 36.1 °C). The lower temperatures signify the estrogen phase of a normal female's cycle, therefore it is logical that women with excessively lower body temperatures, may have an excess of estrogen, thus endometriosis. Research is needed to determine the reliability of using waking temperatures to diagnose endometriosis and its severity. Additionally, the current research into Aromatase, an estrogen-synthesizing enzyme produced by the implants themselves, has provided evidence as to why and how the disease persists after menopause and hysterectomy.
"Retrograde menstruation", in which some of the menstrual debris of menstruation flows into the pelvis, may play an important role (John A. Sampson). While most women may have some retrograde menstrual flow, typically their immune system is able to clear the debris and prevent implantation and growth of cells from this occurrence. However, in some patients, endometrial tissue transplanted by retrograde menstruation is able to implant and establish itself as endometriosis. Factors that might cause the tissue to grow in some women, but not in others, need to be studied, and some of the possible causes below may provide some explanation, e.g. hereditary factors, toxins, or a compromised immune system. It can be argued that the uninterrupted occurrence of regular menstruation month after month for decades, is a modern phenomenon, as in the past women had more frequent menstrual rest due to pregnancy and lactation.
A competing theory suggests that endometriosis does not represent transplanted endometrium but starts de novo from local stem cells. This process has been referred to as coelomic metaplasia. Triggers of various kind (including menses, toxins, or immune factors) may be necessary to start this process.
Hereditary factors play a role. It is well recognized that daughters or sisters of patients with endometriosis are at higher risk of developing endometriosis themselves. A recent study (2005) published in the American Journal of Human Genetics found a link between endometriosis and chromosome 10q26. One study found that, in female siblings of patients with endometriosis the relative risk of endometriosis is 5.7:1 versus a control population.
It is accepted that in specific patients endometriosis can spread directly. Thus endometriosis has been found in abdominal incisional scars after surgery for endometriosis.
On rare occasions endometriosis may be transplanted by blood or by the lymphatic system into peripheral organs (e.g. lungs, brain).
Recent research is focusing on the possibility that the immune system may not be able to cope with the cyclic onslaught of retrograde menstrual fluid. In this context there is interest in studying the relationship of endometriosis to autoimmune disease, allergic reactions, and the impact of toxins.
Another area of research is the search for endometriosis markers. These markers are substances made by or in response to endometriosis that health care providers can measure in the blood, urine, or daily waking temperature. If markers are found, health care providers could diagnose endometriosis by testing a woman's blood, urine, or daily waking temperature, which might reduce the need for surgery. CA-125 is known to be elevated in many patients with endometriosis, but not specifically indicative of endometriosis.

Diagnosis
A health history and a physical examination can in many patients lead the physician to suspect the diagnosis.

Use of imaging tests may identify larger endometriotic areas, such as nodules or endometriotic cysts. The two most common imaging tests are ultrasound and magnetic resonance imaging (MRI). Normal results on these tests do not eliminate the possibility of endometriosis--areas of endometriosis are often too small to be seen by these tests.

The only sure way to confirm an endometriosis diagnosis is by laparoscopy. The diagnosis is based on the characteristic appearance of the disease, if necessary corroborated by a biopsy. Laparoscopy also allows for surgical treatment of endometriosis.

Generally, endometriosis-directed drug therapy (other than the oral contraceptive pill) is utilized after a confirmed surgical diagnosis of endometriosis.

Cause of pain
The way endometriosis causes pain is the topic of much research. Because many women with endometriosis feel pain during or related to their periods and may spill further menstrual flow into the pelvis with each menstruation, some researchers are trying to reduce menstrual events in patients with endometriosis.

Endometrial tissue reacts to hormonal stimulation and may "bleed" at the time of menstruation. It accumulates locally, causes swelling, and triggers inflammatory responses with activation of cytokines. It is thought that this process may lead to pain perception.

Endometriosis is thought to be an auto-immune condition and if the immune system is compromised with a food intolerance, then removing that food from the diet can, in some people, have an effect. Common intolerances in people with endometriosis are wheat and dairy.

Treatments
Currently, there is no cure for endometriosis, though in some patients menopause (natural or surgical) will abate the process. Nevertheless, a hysterectomy and/or removal of the ovaries will not guarantee that the endometriosis areas and/or the symptoms of endometriosis will not come back. Conservative treatments usually try to address pain or infertility issues. Medical herbal treatments can sometimes be effective in controlling the disease.

The treatments for endometriosis pain include:
NSAIDs and other pain medication: They often work quite well as they not only reduce pain but also menstrual flow. They are commonly used in conjunction with other therapy. For more severe cases narcotic prescription drugs may be used.
Gonadotropin Releasing Hormone (GnRH) Agonist: These agents work by increasing the levels of GnRH. Consistent stimulation of the GnRH receptors results in downregulation. This causes a decrease in FSH and LH, thereby decreasing estrogen and progesterone levels.
It is suggested but unproven that pregnancy and childbirth can stop endometriosis.
Hormone suppression therapy: This approach tries to reduce or eliminate menstrual flow and estrogen support. Typically, it needs to be done for several months or even years.
Progesterone or Progestins: Progesterone counteracts estrogen and inhibits the growth of the endometrium. Such therapy can reduce or eliminate menstruation in a controlled and reversible fashion. Progestins are chemical variants of natural progesterone.
Avoiding products with xenoestrogens, which have a similar effect to naturally produced estrogen and can increase growth of the endometrium.
Continuous birth control pills consist of the use of birth control pills without the use of placebo pills. This eliminates monthly bleeding episodes.
Danazol (Danocrine) and gestrinone are suppressive steroids with some androgenic activity. Both agents inhibit the growth of endometriosis but their use remains limited as they may cause hirsutism. There has been some research done at Case Western Reserve University on a topical Danocrine, applied locally, which has not produced the hirsutism characteristics. The study has not yet been published in a medical journal.
Gonadotropin releasing hormone agonists (GnRH agonists) induce a profound hypoestrogenism by decreasing FSH and LH levels. While quite effective, they induce unpleasant menopausal symptoms, and over time may lead to osteoporosis. To counteract such side effects some estrogen may have to be given back (add-back therapy).
Aromatase inhibitors are medications that block the formation of estrogen and have become of interest for researchers who are treating endometriosis.
Surgical treatment is usually a good choice if endometriosis is extensive, or very painful. Surgical treatments range from minor to major surgical procedures.
Laparoscopy is very useful not only to diagnose endometriosis, but to treat it. With the use of scissors, cautery, lasers, hydrodissection, or a sonic scalpel, endometriotic tissue can be ablated or removed in an attempt to restore normal anatomy. Studies have shown that with true excision such as the Redwine Method, recurrence rates are less than 20%.
Laparotomy can be used for more extensive surgery either in attempt to restore normal anatomy, or at least preserve reproductive potential.
Hysterectomy (removal of the uterus and surrounding tissue) and bilateral salpingo-oophorectomy (removal of the fallopian tubes and ovaries).
Bowel resection can be useful if there is bowel involvement.
For patients with extreme pain, a presacral neurectomy may be indicated where the nerves to the uterus are cut.
Raising your serotonin level: low serotonin levels reduce the pain threshold, and make people more vulnerable to every pain. Women particularly need adequate amounts of light during the second half of their menstrual cycles, when their serotonin levels may already be low.
Many people like sweets: eating sugar or chocolate temporarily increases serotonin levels, but creates a rebound effect, characterized by heightened PMS symptoms.
Avoid coffee and alcohol. Both can increase the levels of estrone.
Melatonin and serotonin are increased by meditation, and the stress hormone cortisol is decreased. Melatonin causes you to go into delta-sleep, during which period Human Growth Hormone is released. As melatonin levels drop from childhood (100%) to age 20 (30%) and age 30 (20%), recovering takes more time, so good deep sleep is essential.
Serotonin is manufactured by the body from a partial protein or amino acid called tryptophan. This amino acid is found in many foods, including soy, turkey, chicken, halibut, and beans.
Lavender, primarily in the form of oil, has been found to reduce several physiological parameters of stress by stimulating serotonin and inducing a feeling of calm and happiness.
Light therapy increases your serotonin levels.
In many cases, Marijuana (Cannabis Sativa) has proven to relax or suppress the pain and relieve stress. Although doctors consider this to be an unorthodox method given all the treatments available for this condition and the fact that it may not produce any long term effects, this may still be an effective way to combat endometriosis. Research on this method is minimal since the drug is illegal in many countries.
Complementary or Alternative medicine are used by many women who get great relief from the pain and discomforts from a variety of available treatments.
Nutrition There has been research showing that prostaglandins series 1 and 3 have an anti inflammatory effect which can help with endometriosis. Nutrition can also help to boost the immune system, which is important if endometriosis is an auto-immune disorder.

Prognosis
Proper counseling of patients with endometriosis requires attention to several aspects of the disorder. Of primary importance is the initial operative staging of the disease to obtain adequate information on which to base future decisions about therapy. The patient's symptoms and desire for childbearing dictate appropriate therapy. Most patients can be told that they will be able to obtain significant relief from pelvic pain and that treatment will assist them in achieving pregnancy.

Complications
The main complication of endometriosis is impaired fertility. Approximately one-third to one-half of women who have difficulty becoming pregnant have endometriosis.

For pregnancy to occur, an egg must be released from an ovary and travel through the fallopian tube to the uterus (womb), where it can be fertilized by a male's sperm and then attach to the uterine wall to begin development. Endometriosis can produce adhesions that can trap the egg near the ovary. It may inhibit the mobility of the fallopian tube and impair its ability to pick up the egg. In most cases, however, endometriosis probably interferes with conception in more complex ways.

Internal scarring
Adhesions
Pelvic cysts
Chocolate cysts
Ruptured cyst
Infertility - occurs in about 30-40% of cases.
Complications of endometriosis consist of bowel and ureteral obstruction resulting from pelvic adhesions. Rarely, endometriosis can be extraperitoneal and is found in the lungs and CNS.

Infertility
Endometriosis is associated with a lowered fertility and is the second leading cause of infertility in females that ovulate normally (the leading cause is pelvic inflammatory disease).

Treatment of infertility
Laparoscopy to remove or vaporize the growths in women who have mild or minimal endometriosis is effective in improving fertility. One study has shown that surgical treatment of endometriosis approximately doubles the fecundity (pregnancy rate).

In patients with small amounts of endometriosis treatment with fertility medication clomiphene may lead to success.

In-vitro fertilization (IVF) procedures are effective in improving fertility in many women with endometriosis. IVF makes it possible to combine sperm and eggs in a laboratory and then place the resulting embryos into the woman's uterus. IVF is one type of assisted reproductive technology that may be an option for women and families affected by infertility related to endometriosis.

Relation to cancer
Endometriosis is not the same as endometrial cancer. However it is hypothesized that the excess estrogen creation and abnormal cell growth caused by endometriosis may eventually cause ovarian or other cancers over a woman's lifetime. The staging of endometriosis is similar to the staging of cancers, as well, in the sense that they both gauge the spread of disease in a similar fashion to different zones of the body. Current research has demonstrated an association between endometriosis and certain types of cancers. Endometriosis often also coexists with leiomyoma or adenomyosis, as well as autoimmune disorders.

Monday, July 9, 2007

New Week.

It is the monday after the surgery and I am beginning to feel better. Still with some pain, but better over all. Trying to manage the pain with Tylenol because the Percocet was making me too itchy and dizzy. I was so thankful that Kimani stayed with me these passed couple of days, now, thank God I have my sister in law to help me with Nehemiah (he came home last night).

He looked so big after just a few days at grandma's. Cutie. We missed him a whole lot.

My goal for tomorrow is to walk down the steps and up that hill alone so that I can take Nemi to school after my sister in law leaves. Wish me luck.

Saturday, July 7, 2007

About Kimani

What can I say about this man that I married. He has been beyond amazing to me. Since the surgery he has been so attentive in making sure I am comfortable and taking my pain medicine on time. He has helped me bathe (since I cannot bend down to wash my legs). He helps me get dressed and has been so great at having my meals ready for me.

Now it feels weird to say these things because it sounds like this is out of the ordinary for him, but that is the thing about him. He is so much my everything. He is always attentive to me. When I am tired on any given day, he will let me sleep and he would cook and clean for us. He is not disgusted with the bloody dressings on my cuts, he has changed them several times already. He walks me to the bathroom five times in less than five minutes while all the IV fluids were leaving my body. He is beyond amazing. I really hope that my son learns how to care for his future wife by the example that Kimani shows on a regular. His love for me is so tangible and I feel like I really have the one guy every girl wants and so many of them think it is only a fantasy. He is not a fantasy girls - he is just not available. I am thankful and feel lucky to have him.

I LOVE YOU KIMANI.

About the surgery

It is Saturday today, two days after the operation. It has been pretty hard so far.

So let me tell you about Thursday, I went in with Kimani at 9am for my 1030 surgery and everything was going as scheduled. It is funny that I never asked how long the surgery would be, but I was surprised I was in recovery at about 2pm. That was one long surgery.

So the doctors told us that I pretty much have endometriosis all over my pelvis. They opened up my left ovary and drained the cyst that was about 6-7 cm, but thankfully they did not take it out. In addition, they opened up the right ovary and drained a second cyst that was there of a smaller size. Though I still have both of my ovaries I have to go through intensive treatment for the next six months. Their plan is to shut down my ovaries for six months and give my body a break and hope that the endometriosis dies completely. After that they will wait for my ovaries to come back to working order and hopefully we will be able to conceive again then.

Monday, July 2, 2007

Accomplishments

Nehemiah did pretty good on the potty on Saturday. I am so proud of him. He went in the potty everytime and not once did we have an accident on the floor. Kimani and I did a good job tag teaming him and encouraging and guiding him to go. It was a pretty productive day. I thought Nemi would kind of back track on sunday because he was back in pampers since we spend the entire day at the church, but today (monday) he seemed to ease right back to no pampers. It was a good day today.

We just might have him trained in time for the Family Reunion at the end of this month. I hope so.

Friday, June 29, 2007

Potty Potty

Well this is the end of the week and I am not sure I made much progress in teaching Nemi to use the potty. He thinks if he pees - anywhere - he gets candy. He does not understand that he only gets candy if he does pee in the potty. So anyway, I have my work cut out for me.

More to come... stay tuned.

ds

Pre-Op Appointment

Today was our pre-operation appointment with my GYN. It seems like things are not as dangerous as I thought them to be. They will be removing the left ovary, but there is no reason what so ever to do a hysterectamy even if things get complicated. He assured me that one thing had nothing to do with the other. He even told us that in the next month or two we could begin to try to expand our family. That was really exciting - we look forward to that.

So I will post again next week and tell you how it went.

ds

Wednesday, June 27, 2007

Day Three of training

Well, today he went again. I was quite excited. He was not as scared as he has been. Of course, he was super happy once he got his candy. More to come tomorrow.

Tuesday, June 26, 2007

The joys of Potty training

Well, we have finally drawn the line in the sand and we are determined to completely potty train Nehemiah this summer. We began yesterday (again) by just letting him walk around the house without a diaper. We had originally decided to potty train him back in January when he had just turned three and began school, but it proved difficult since his school day began at noon. He knew he would get a diaper on to go to school and it became too much of an off-on thing. Wake up at 9 diaper off. go to school at noon diaper on. come home at 3 diaper off. go to bed at 9pm diaper on. It was difficult to keep it consistent.

But now his school days begin at 9am so I wake him up and put a diaper for school and when he returns at noon until he goes to bed at night he is diaper free. It has only been two days, but today he went peepee in the potty. Yeeeeppppeeee!!!! I am sure he will continue to do it because he just realized that his prize is a piece of candy, and what child would not do anything for candy.

Will keep you posted.

Monday, June 18, 2007

Physically Better...

but an emotional mess. I am beginnig to feel a bit overwhelmed. I think it is sinking in what is to come and I am getting nervous, and scared and even edgy. I do not want to be all over the place like this emotionally, but whoah! this is serious. I hope it is a simple process. One of my good friends (Leah) came with me to the Dr's appointment where they said what was really going on and she took some great notes. This is basically what the doctor's said and how the consultation went after he did an ultrasound, which was (I want these notes for future reference):


It looks like a big endometrioma (the fuzzy-looking cyst on the ultrasound) by your left ovary, which could mean endometriosis. The cyst could weigh down your ovary and cause torsion, which is extremely painful and requires immediate surgery - torsion is when the cyst is at least 6cm and twists on itself.
You have three options:
1. Do nothing and see if it goes away (if perchance it is not an endometrioma).
2. Take birth control pills, which suppress the ovaries.
3. Undergo surgery, if the supposed endometrioma does not resolve on itself (or if you think it won't).

It's an outpatient surgery called a laraposcopy or laparoscopy (?) - a small incision below the belly button going down as far as they need to go to get out the whole cyst. Possible chance they will also have to remove the left ovary - don't remember why, might be if the cyst has gotten in there or damaged it or is not possible to remove without also removing the ovary.

Questions asked:
1. Will this make you ovulate half as much, with 1 less ovary? No, your one remaining ovary will work double time and pick up the slack from the missing ovary. You will still release an egg every month; just always from the same side. This may make you go into menopause earlier because your ovary can only do so much work in its lifetime, and will run out of time earlier.
2. The surgery requires a general anasthetic, which will completely knock you out. Kimani can be with you before and after the surgery. Recovery will technically take three weeks (and then you can go back to work - haha), though you'll really only be off your feet for a few days.
3. Will there be scar tissue? Yes, but that is always a factor with any surgery and it should not be a problem with future pregnancies. I'm assuming the scar tissue would be not more of an issue than with a c-section.

Tuesday, June 12, 2007

Outpatient Procedure

Well, it has been a heck of a week. Last Wednesday and Thursday I was in bed with so much pain. The same pain that keeps coming occassionally since March, but it has been getting much much worst. My good friend Marisol came over to take me to the ER and after some tests they found some suspicious mass on my ovaries, so I followed up with my OBGYN the next Monday and it turns out I have an endometrioma on my left ovary which has to be removed and most likely so will the ovary itself. The doctor told me that the endometrioma is the most likely culprit for my infertility and he assured me that after the removal of the mass and the ovary the chances to conceive will be much greater.

I am so scared and I feel so wierd knowing that I will be walking around with one less body part. I mean am sure that it is for the best, and I am confident in the fact that if this were not necessary he would have suggested another option, but even when you logically know all these things your emotions are still on a rollercoaster. Kimani has been really supportive and amazingly understanding in terms of my lack of ability to do much around the house any more. He has really stepped up his game even when his plate is already so full of other things. I am so lucky to have him.

Not only that, but the family has really come in to show their support and have been giving me so much help in so many different ways. I am so thankful for each and everyone of them.

That is all for now, I will certainly keep you posted.

Tuesday, June 5, 2007

Visitors In town.

Great news! My sister in law is visiting from Florida. Yiiipppeeee... How exciting? I cannot wait to see her. We talk on the phone all the time and I always tell her she should move here and she always tells me I should move there. We just want to live near each other. I miss her and I cannot wait to her my little nephew too. He is just to cute and I am sure he is very active by now too.

Well, I guess I will tell you all about it later.

Tuesday, May 29, 2007

Business update

Ok! so only about 500 people have given me the same advice in terms of what to do about getting my business off the ground. I keep thinking that the first thing for me to do is to get some money (about 5K) and make all the cards at first and them they will just automatically or magically be sold, but I reckon I am thinking about this all wrong.

This week I have to finish two cards (one of them for my nephew's birthday) and then I will create a catalog with order forms and we are gonna have to hit the town and shake hands and kiss babies. It is time. this is the summer. I do not want to let yet another year go by of me just dreamin', and hopin', and wishin', and thinkin' - it is time to get the party started.

see you at store shelves. :)

Memorial Day Weekend

This past weekend was Memorial Day weekend, and boy was I glad Kimani had the day off. We had family time!! We rented a couple of movies yesterday (Happy N'ever After and Music and Lyrics) and we were just happy to be with each other. I was thinking about how glad I felt that Kimani was gonna be with is and it dawned on me that after five years of marriage, it is a good thing that I still look forward to being with him. I was really elated! Nehemiah was attached to him the whole time. He showed just how much he missed his daddy.

I was excited also about the sun being out and getting a tan. I slathered on my dark tanning lotion and went out to the park with Nemi and Kimani. I want to get a tan this summer.

Well, I look forward to the rest of the summer. The good thing is that it did not rain this weekend and I hope it is a 'forecast' as to what the summer will be like.

talk to you guys later.

ds

Friday, May 25, 2007

Another day, another week

Hello! How is everyone doing this week? Hope you are all ready for Memorial Day. We have no plans whatsoever. We are just looking forward to having a family weekend with nothing on the agenda. That feels food. Knowing that there is no running around to do or any place to go. Though we risk staying home all weekend cooped up and bored. But I do not think so the weather is looking nice and I am sure we can find a park somewhere to just hang out and soak up the son.

All right, let's make this Memorial Day Weekend memorable.

Enjoy yourselves.

Lots of love,

ds

Monday, May 21, 2007

Mary Kay

In addition, I became a MaryKay consultant just this week and I am excited to get a stream of income so help subsidize the expenses for my passion Xpressions of Love. I really want to get the business off the ground, but I do not want to get another loan and be in more debt, so hopefully MK will bring in some money to pay for all of the thing related to XoL. We will see how this goes.

Mother's Day 2007

As for my mothers day, it was the best. Kimani gave me a marvelous gift. He gave me a shopping spree at the Woodbury commons. I came home with three pairs of shoes, a dress, earrings and necklaces, and 5 outfits, from skirts to jeans and everything in between. Thank you hunny. It was the best gift ever. I had such a great time. He topped off the evening by taking me to Applebees where I was able to have my fav sandwich and the apple chimicheesecake (yum yum). That really was sweet that he would come along and allow me to walk around and pick out things and put them back and pick out other things and then wait for me to try it on and let me know how he liked it on me or not liked it on me. All the while he was in full charge of Nehemiah, so I did not have to fuss with him at all. I could just fully focus on getting the task done - a new wardrobe. It really was the best gift ever - doing it together.

Nehemiah

I am so excited to share with you that Nehemiah will be attending the summer program in his school starting next month. I was really hoping he would be accepted and he was. He has been improving significantly since he began school in January and his teachers and I both agree that we want to keep the momentum going and hopefully he will blossom even more when there are less kids.

Unexpected things

Well, it is really an eye opener to see how much we are dependent and consumed by computers now-a-days. My home computer crashed and I had no access to the Internet for about a week and a half and let me tell you.... that was one hard week and a half. I was really beginning to go crazy, yet,, it was such a productive week and a half. I worked on several pending projects I have here and they were completed. Finally.

Ok so I have created different postings regarding what has been going on this week so check those out.

ds

Monday, May 7, 2007

Lovers for Life


Click on the square above/Play to hear songs.

Fall in love all over again with these wonderful songs.

I love you Kimani. You prove to me everyday that I made the best choice ever to marry you.

Well, kids will be kids

Oh! Our little Nemi. Since he was born, I keep telling myself that he is a boy and he will have his share of booboos and scars. But let me tell you, it is one thing to think that and another thing when it happens. Little Nemi was playing with some boys and he fell, somehow he did not put his hands out to break his fall and he fell on his face, chipping two of his teeth. Awwwww! poor kid. Thank God they are the baby teeth and one day they will fall out, but just to imagine how much that hurt was pretty hard.